Kawan??

Kawan?? I was thinking wat does it realy mean. Sometimes i thnk that we realy need frens in our life but sometimes we dun. Doesn't mean that I am 'kera sumbang', xpyah nk de kwan langsong, but de things is, klu kte de kwan but they pretend like we're not their fren, bek xya kwan rite??

Frens of mine,someone that I knew for years, all of sudden da bruba. I mean, sape x sdei klu dye msj, asked me kid of ques, "Hye, fiqah! pe cite skrg? sombong ea skrg.." but den when I rply, she never rply it, never for once.. I mean,it's ot me yg start dat conversation but she is..but den, she de one yg ignored dat msj. X heran klu skali dua dye wat cmtu, orait, I consider dye xtau msj tu wujud o dye xde crdt..but ble da byk kali she keep msj me, asked me how me now,when I rply, de same thing happen.Xkanlah stiap kali rply dye xde crdit? It nonsense laa..

Pena gk dye msj me, asked da dpt scholar x, den i jwab, noup..lom lg..den dye rply, asked for bla..blaa..I was thinking, bkn nk brok sangke, but if things keep happen, mkneye mmg btol kot she will only rply if ade kpentingan for her, only for her..mmg la cm xbek to say dat to our fren,but for me, if my fren msj me, cmne pon,I'll try my bes tok rply. I mean, i know how it feel klu kwan kte watdunno for our msj, mst sdei..

I never talk bout dis before to anyone, xcept to my sis, jus nk sdapkan ati..dye kwan lame,since form 1, definitely I will b please to tex o know bout each other. But then, pristiwa kat fb (xpya r nk citer) makes me wonder yg dye mmg da bruba. Since that, I said to myself that I won't tex her anymore n i dun wanna know anything bout her anymore.Mmg agk kejam bunyinyer but i know dats de way for me not to hate her. But, if she tex me,I will tex her back for sure but tok rpat cm kat skola dl..I won't. Nk kate serik, mmg serik.but klu xde xperience cmnie, kte xkn tau how to hndle it rite?? hehe..

So, I guess, I will stop now. Dis jus wanna share my xperience..if dye de terbace psal ni, sori for wat I'm rite..if, klu bleh, change ur prangai laa..dun do that to others..I mean, klu owg len pon dowg akn sdei..N u, klu owg len wat cmtu kat urself pon, u'll feel wat I feel.. so, I hav to stop now..

Salam..